The trials and tribulations of exclusively expressing

August 8, 2016

Little M is eleven weeks old today and I’m proud (or crazy!) to say that I’m still expressing so that she can be exclusively fed breast milk. 

I’ve got mixed feelings about this. Some days I’m really pleased that I’m still going and expressing doesn’t seem like a big deal at all. But other days it just feels like the biggest chore and I wonder why I’m still putting myself through it. 

For example, on Saturday we took a trip to the coast with the in-laws. Half way through the afternoon I needed to pump. The trip wasn’t going amazingly well for various reasons and the last thing I wanted to do on a boiling hot day was trek back to the car to express. 

I ended up in the front seat, air con on full blast, a curtain fashioned out of a muslin and another tied to my bra straps in a vague attempt to hide the fact that I was hooked up like a prize Friesian.  

Thank goodness I was wearing a nursing dress at least. 

I know I’ll have to switch to formula at some point. It seems crazy to keep pumping, especially when hubby is at work and I’m doing the night feed, then pumping once Little M has gone back to sleep, meaning I get less sleep than I would otherwise. 

Last night Little M slept through from 10:30pm until 6am. Yet I was up at 4am pumping away as I didn’t want to leave it more than five hours to pump for fear of my supply dropping. 

I suppose I’ll just have to continue to play it by ear. Part of me wants to get to six months but I’ll have to see. When I’m in situations like the one I was in on Saturday it seems ridiculous but then I think in the grand scheme of my life, six months really isn’t that long, and I’m nearly half way there.

I just want to do what’s best for Little M. But it’s hard to know sometimes what that is. 

How long did you breastfeed/express for? What made you make the switch to formula? Did you find it a positive experience? I’d love to hear from you in the comments. 


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4 responses to “The trials and tribulations of exclusively expressing”

  1. I think you’re doing incredibly well, I don’t think I’d be able to do it. I breast and express fed Toby for 4 months before he went on to formula and in the end he was on dairy free formula. I hadn’t realised he had a dairy intolerance the whole time he was breast fed. Martha is now 14 weeks old and absolutely will not take a bottle, which I’ll admit I’m starting to freak out about somewhat. Breastfeeding is going fine and I’m happy to keep going, but I am feeling like I need some time to myself to exercise, work etc and it just doesn’t look like that’s going to happen. Just do what you feel is best for both you and Little M xx

    • Jules says:

      Thanks Hannah. I think for me the world of formula is such a scary, unknown place, which makes it harder for me to stop too. I have just been working out when Little M will be six months and it’s before December. In my head I think that’s my goal but I think I’ll have to reassess once hubby is back at work in September. In many ways, it might actually be easier as we won’t have so many days out all the time. I hope Martha will start to take a bottle for you soon, so that you can have a little break xx

  2. Kaye says:

    Well done Momma! I expressed with my first and it can be such a slog but you’re completely torn knowing that it’s also so good for them. I think you’re doing amazingly well. Thanks for linking up to #MarvMondays. Kaye xo

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